Fuck fuck fuckity fuck, I'm pretty sure I just single-handedly ruined one of the best friendships of my life, I shouldn't have told him that. I don't know why I even brang it up, it wasn't even necessary! I think curiosity got the better of me again, but like they say, curiosity killed the cat. Clearly this proves once and for all there is something wrong with me. I'm so stupid, why do I have to wreck everything that's important to me?